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I told that to a group of friends and a twink who was there that night was like, “No you’re not.” And I was like, “Okay, sure. Interestingly, at first I was like I think I might be a trans gay man. I came out as nonbinary in 2017 and I don’t remember exactly what led me to that realization. I knew that I was nonbinary, but I was still very much performing-so much was about performance and making the other person like me and proving something to myself. When I first met my current partner, I was still very feminine-presenting, if not completely binary. Since I’ve come out and started to transition she’s been liking all my posts-she’s kind of cheerleading me from the sidelines. I was a part of that and it left me very emotionally confused. That couple was constantly cheating on each other-they weren’t open. I’ve had them a few times in my life and they’ve always been really sexually charged. I feel like there’s a very specific type of feminine friendship where one party is terrified of the other. Queerness allows you to want to embody the thing that you also want to fuck. Heterosexuality is a lot of things, but I think the toxic version that we have around is very much rooted in the fear of the other while also being attracted to the other.
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It’s interesting to look back at that moment and be like: There’s layers.
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That’s who I’d been attracted to prior to my transition and now I’m actually embodying that in a way that feels so much more connected to me than anything sexually outside of myself. I was usually the funny sidekick character in my own life. Pippin sang a song and I just remember identifying the feeling of like, “Oh I’m turned on by this silly little guy.” They were just two silly little guys and they were really cute. The first time I was turned on by something was when I saw Return of the King with my parents at the local cinema. I started masturbating when I was young, not knowing what I was doing. This week: Luke, who is 29 and nonbinary transmasculine. Sex Lives chronicles the evolution of one person's sex life.